What I write about today is very personal, but it points so clearly to God’s loving and caring influence over all things that I must share it for His glory. Nobody can EVER tell me that He is not aware of every little thing that one of His children go through, feel, or even think.

I went to bed last night and awoke this morning with a heavy heart.  I know of no specific reason for this, yet there it was nonetheless. As I got up this morning, my body didn’t want to move and I certainly didn’t feel like getting right to my time with Him. Today though, I am reminded again that although it is much more exciting to dive into the Word because of delight, there are incredible blessings to reaching for it out of obedience.

I began as I normally do. I write in a journal and tell the Lord of my thankfulness and commit my day to Him, etc. Today, I wrote the following: “Lord, I thank You that even when I go to bed and also wake up feeling sad and even empty, that You have never left me or changed. You’ve never felt empty. You are incapable of that feeling, but You know it because You know me. What did you feel on the cross? Can any human begin to imagine it? No, we are incapable of that. Our ‘pains’ are as a grain of sand in comparison to any You suffered.”

I then opened the Word. Without being sure of where to go, God led me to the Psalms. I read a bit and then came to Psalm 22: 1 My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me? Of course I knew this verse from the gospels, so I looked it up in the concordance and found the scripture in Matthew 27:46. This time Jesus Himself spoke, “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?”

It was as if God spoke and said to me, “Maria, you are wrong. My Son did feel empty; a depth of empty that no human has known.” Jesus knew more about feeling abandoned and anguished and broken than we ever will, but in His case, it was MUCH more than a ‘feeling’. For a moment in time; a moment that had never occurred  in eternity past nor would ever occur in eternity future, God turned His back on His own Son…..when He BECAME sin……for us.

My mind reeled. I stated that He couldn’t ever feel empty earlier because I thought of His ‘Oneness’ with the Father. But He did know it; not just because He knew what I was feeling at that moment but because He KNEW it PERSONALLY on my behalf and yours.  Oh how incomprehensible was our Savior’s sacrifice!

For Today: The goodness of God knows no bounds. He is so truly merciful; for He instructed and guided and taught me with precision, what He had for me to know…Today. Despite the fact that I didn’t have any reason to feel what I felt, He directed me in love to Himself. I will never be forsaken, but He was. I will never be judged for my sin, but He was. I will never be without His Spirit, but He was without His Father while He WAS my sin!  For me, for you!!

I praise the Lord for orchestrating all of my time with Him this morning. He does know how I feel; of course He does. But more important than that He knows just what I need. He knows exactly what you need too……

Will you seek His face each and every morning… when you are energetic, when you are weak, when you are excited, and when you are downcast? Be obedient to Him no matter what and in spite of how you ‘feel’. He will most certainly do what He does best: show YOU HIS personal love and care.